Friday, May 18, 2012

This I know....

I hate this time of year. I do.

Another school year ends, another school year will soon begin.

It seems that first grade and fifth grade just started. How is it already May?

I promise I will try to keep my Joy. I just may need a little help, okay a lot of help, from up above.

Do you ever wonder if the Lord feels the same about us? Does His stomach sink at each birthday milestone? Does He sometimes wish that we were all little bitty and cuddly again?

The cool thing about God is that He knows what our future holds. He knows what is around the corner for us, daily.

The unknown is always the worst I think. Which pretty much leaves all of us in the unknown territory. Only God knows what each second will hold for us. Including our children.

I am really trusting Him with all of this, I promise. Some days are just harder than others.

Maybe it just has a whole heck of a lot to do with change. 

I like changing things my hair color, my make-up colors, my wardrobe, etc. However, when it comes to my babies...change is not cool.

I don't like them to change. I love the stages that they are in right now.

Joseph is so funny and innocent and he loves me so much.

Presley is a free spirit, but she still needs me . A lot. I love that she needs me. It makes my heart very happy.

This will change soon. I know it will.

Enjoying the moment.

Living in each second.

This is what I am hanging on tightly to.

I think I just need more children. I really do. Not to replace mine, but to be able to do what I love to do the very best in a BIGGER way.

Love, nurture, teach, cherish, squeeze.

I was born to be a Momma. 

It is not because I am a great Momma--by any means. Far, far, far from it.

It is just that I love it so much.

I pray every day for the Lord to prepare our home for foster children in our near future. My heart is a little anxious. I am not really sure what to expect.

This is what I do know: I will love the living guts out of any child brought into our home. I may be tired, I may be at a loss for how to help the child, the child may break my heart. BUT, this child will be loved.

God created me for Motherhood. This I know for sure.

It is the greatest gift that I will ever leave behind on this Earth. I pray that the seeds being planted will reap a harvest until Jesus Himself comes back for His people.

I pray that if there is any longing or desire in your heart, that the Lord will fulfill it. Not just fulfill it, but overflow your heart with your desire.

Wouldn't you give your child his or her desires if you could? If you knew that it was best for them? If you knew that it would complete them?

Yes, me too.

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

holding tight to my nest,


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I have been like an emotional roller coaster all week. My baby girl graduated pre-K this week, and it tore my heart in two. :( I have a REALLY hard time with them growing up, but like you I'm doing my best to trust Him! :) It's even painful physically for me! I get all down and out at times. I don't want a minute to pass that I would regret not doing right with them and by them. And I don't want to miss a thing! So glad to know we share this same love for our babies! :) And the child that will enter your home will be blessed beyond belief! Talk about a refuge! You and your home will be comfort, peace, hope, love, trust, safety, and the list goes on! Your home had the sweetest spirit the day I came for the Shine Tea. Full of peace. Just like you! And Him! ;) Love, Sarah