So, the Lord has been talking to me today. Big time.
It started a few days ago actually. I had to sit down and write about it, because I thought it may encourage one of you.
I've been feeling so torn lately. I have felt the calling for a while to get plugged into my church more with bible studies.
This Summer, the opportunity fell right in my lap, literally.
I was so excited and joyful because I KNEW it was God's timing for me to begin a new season of leading a small group study.
However, I was also a little sad.
I would miss my Tuesday night girls in Madison.
Could I possibly do both?
Not likely as school starts back up and activities are in full swing.
I've been torn.
I know that the Lord had brought me into this Tuesday night bible study group in Madison a few years ago. I still feel very tied to them.
So, why would He pull me another way??
My heart is a little selfish in the whole thing because I want to do both groups.
I've been asking myself for months now if I am making the right decision. Am I following the Lord? What about all that I have invested in the relationships from my Tuesday night group?
My revelation came from an unlikely place.
A friend of mine was telling me of a pastor who was leaving a church. Some of the members were not happy about it.
One of the members asked him this question: "How do you know that it is the Lord calling you to leave? How do you know that it is not just your own selfish ambition?"
This was his answer..I am paraphrasing in a big way.
"You know it's His calling when you are scared to death. You know it's His calling when it makes you uncomfortable. You know it's His calling when it would be easier to stay. You know it's His calling when He lines it all up, but it still takes a leap of Faith to change."
This has stuck with me for several days now.
This is exactly how I was feeling. Scared to death, uncomfortable, majorly unequipped, yet I have had every assurance that this had to be His way for me.
Fear would grip my heart and I would think: "If I knew with certainty that I would be a good small group leader, if I knew that ladies would come, if I knew that God would anoint me in this uncharted water...would I go?"
The answer was always Yes.
However, we don't always know with certainly. We just have to take steps in obedience. Trusting His lead even when it's not the easy way. Even when it would be so much easier to stay where it's comfortable, where your friends are.
I'm thankful to God for loving me enough to show me this Truth today.
He's so faithful, y'all. He really is.
He has called us to make disciples of all nations. That is a HUGE call. HUGE.
We cannot do that being comfortable all the time.
We must take a risk. We must keep moving. We must put our will aside and submit to His.
Has He asked you to change course? Does it scare you?
Take His hand and walk over that mountain to the other side. The Promise of His faithfulness is just over the bend.
learning to go with the flow of His course,