Tuesday, March 24, 2009

A Debbie Downer....

Okay, this will be short and sweet. Now that my blog is private I can share even more, right? Lem will be thrilled about this. He just can't seem to stop me from being so personal and just so, so...........female! (I love you, Lem)

I am tired today. I love being a stay-at-home and wouldn't trade it for the world. But, my brain hurts. I feel depleted today. Presley is so full of energy and life and I love that about her! In fact, while typing, she came in here and tripped over my shoes. She is now crying with superior drama and sitting in my lap. I love her. I am just exhausted. Negotiation after negotiation with a 4 year old certainly wears you down.

Today was the last day of a bible study on Daniel that has been going on for 24 weeks...YES,24 weeks! It has been such an eye opener for me in so many ways. After the study, I thought to was incredible and inspirational. I shudder to think of how I shrink in comparison to such a person. I feel like I struggle to find even 5 minutes alone with God these days.

I know that this is just the season that I am in right now. Please don't think that I am complaining about that. I love more than anything my kids at this age. I have said more than once that if I could freeze time I would do it right now! They are the perfect ages, so inquisitive and intelligent, and always learning. It is a joy to witness.

Certainly Daniel felt this way at times, right?? Certainly he questioned if he was doing a good job, or if he was doing enough to serve the Lord? God knows my heart. He knows my yearnings and my desires. He created me.

God is good, even when I am not so good, he loves me anyway. His patience with me is limitless. Thank you, Lord!

Okay, vent session is over...I feel better already.

I love all of you, my faithful friends and family. You make all of this worth documenting with your encouraging emails and cheering-me-on comments. Thank you!

down..but not out,



erin said...

I love you girl..

Michelle Chapman said...

Jill- I'm right there with you sweetie :)

Tracey said...

We all have those days!!! I love it that we can share where we are in our lives with each other.... that is my saving grace!

24 weeks is huge...way to go sticking with it!!!

Love you,

Mary said...

I just now saw this - now that your blog is private it doesn't show me when you've updated (talk about a Debbie Downer).
You're so great to share just where you are!! I'm proud of you!!
Hang in there, blowing kisses to Mansfield!!

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