Just abide....

It's been a while since I have written on here.

So much happening, this is life I suppose.

Lem's grandmother, Granny Hill, died on March 27th. We were all so sad, yet happy for the reunion that was taking place in Heaven.

Since around that time, I have had such a restless spirit. Waking up in sweaty panic, a restless mind, confusion about some things....and the list goes on.

This has truly been going on since March.

Just this week, the Lord has given me a rested heart. A heart at peace. Finally.

Sometimes, my head gets away from me. I think, and think, and think, and then I analyze...everything.

It can be exhausting.  Let me rephrase: It IS exhausting.

However, God has been telling me to "be still". Over and over, I hear Him whisper this to me.

As a wife, momma, daughter, friend.....we play so many roles. It can be overwhelming to say the least.

I'm always doing a mental checklist of the things I need to do, or not do, or check on......

I can get wrapped up in "doing", instead of just "being".

Hence---a restless spirit.

I get caught up in the crazy cycle of chaos---and it takes a while for me to find the exit ramp!

Well this week I found it.

As I was walking in my neighborhood this afternoon,, I just kept hearing this verse:

"But I have calmed and quieted myself, I am like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child I am content. " Psalm 131:2

The Lord is so sweet. He is just so gentle when He speaks.

He reminded me of my role: To abide in Him.

Nothing else.

When I abide in Him, the chaos is still there, but my heart is at peace. He is the calm in the storm.

Sometimes I feel like I am just chasing and chasing Him. Which is just funny, because He cannot be chased.

He is " I Am that I Am". He is in the present with me. No need in running after Him, because He is here. With me. All the time.

If only I can remember this. Perhaps, I will need to check back on this post from time to time to remind me.

"Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your presence?" Psalm 139:7