As I sit at my computer this morning, and i do mean morning...it is only 7:30 am, I am reflecting on my Lord. Mornings are my special gifts from God and always have been. God knows how I yearn for Him and long for him at this time. The rest of my day is usually filled with preoccupation and distraction. He knows that my mornings allow me to give Him my full attention and devotion. I am not proud that the rest of my day is not filled with the same longing and yearning, but I am working on that part!
There are certain days when I am truly overwhelmed by His glory and His grace. I feel like falling on my face and balling my eyes out before Him. I really cannot imagine what He must see in me. Coming before Him is humbling and eye opening. I am constantly blinded by the light He offers and for a few moments I feel the sting of His purity on my sinful heart. He knows me to the core of my soul. Before I utter a word, He knows what is on the tip of my tongue. Every time I look at my children, I can get a glimpse of how He must feel about me. The love He offers to me without warrant is insurmountable. How I so want everyone on this planet to know the love that He offers, the forgiveness he so openly extends. It is kind of like when you fall in love with someone and you just are so over the moon that you want everyone else to feel the same way. In a way, it is a lot like this for me. I want so much for the people that I meet or see while running my mundane errands to know God's love for them. To know that they too are the apple of His eye. Perhaps this is what He purposely lies on our hearts so that the cold and bitter bite of complacency doesn't settle within us.
My Aunt Debbie told me that her preacher asked them to pay it forward sometime...for example.... consider purchasing the person's meal behind you in a drive-thru sometime and leaving them a card with the cashier telling them that Jesus loves them. This struck a chord in me, for one because we are constantly in a drive-thru, and two, what an easy way to spread the gospel by a simple act of giving to someone. Witnessing to others doesn't exactly come easy to me, but this I can do!! I am so excited to try this and hope others will too! Even if it is just at Starbucks, what a blessing we could be to others! As small as it seems, it only takes a mustard seed for God to work in the hearts of others.
God bless the souls who travel to foreign countries where Christianity is less than popular, to minister to hurting and lost souls. I cannot imagine the courage and unwavering resolve these men and women must have to endure the hardship of criticism. How nice we have it here, safe in our own little worlds in our own little churches.
Sometimes I just have to sit and take it all in. The magnitude of His faithfulness and truth. Today is one of those days for me. Just a day of reflection, in awe of His sovereignty.